Jesus, take the wheel

the vehicle is drifting,
partially under my control, partially in a seemingly autonomous fashion
drifting toward hate, disgust
drifting towards rage
i know i could correct the path...
if i really, really wanted to...
but i'm feeling, at the moment, like i don't want to
like i want to turn the wheel harder,
and to accelerate

...

now Jesus seems to be helping me to be mindful
of the important question...
"and then what?"
well, good point, Jesus.
i'm almost certainly not going to make anything better
i'm almost certainly only going to make things worse,
if only marginally
so what's really the point? the motivation?
it's then that the underlying fear shows its face
ghostliness
a passing by of the world
irrelevance

fortunately there is a better way
a positive contribution
a much more difficult challenge
but perhaps not a very effective one
at least not in terms of the initial motivation

the vehicle is drifting again

it's all yours, J.